Early in the morning ,i recieved these words
They fall on me like an atomic bomb
They makes me pink colored more than ever
She wrote me her pain ,fear and hope in A letter
I take you in my hand and touch you tenderly
Symbols of sexuality that represent my feminity
One arm above my head in front of a mirror
Feeling and searching I’m shaking in terror
How could these lumps the size of a pea
Spread poison throughout and try to kill me
The constant and relentless chemotherapy
Even then there is no absolute guarantee
Infiltrate, penetrate and radiate these cells
Everyday with this is like living in hell
Can’t eat because my food taste like metal
The ache in my chest makes it hard to settle
That’s nothing compared to despair in my heart
Am I still a woman now this pair is split in half
Slice in and cut out the the root of this pain
From this point on I will never be the same
They don’t make any bras with a singular cup
My beautiful hair is falling out of my scalp
I don’t feel any shred of the female I knew
Can not look at my reflection in full view
I’m a wife and a mother a cherished sister
A grandma an aunt and a beloved daughter
Makes no matter it does not discriminate
I believe my outcome is left up to fate
Hold on to my faith keep loved ones near
Alone at night is when I give into my fear
Tears stream my face it is hard to see
I do not want this to be the end of me
Each day I fight on to conquer this battle
My will like iron though my body’s rattled
I draw strength from resevoirs deep within
To replenish and restore this body I’m in.
My heart beckons for those that went before
The truest of angels with pink wings that soar.
I promiss you my dearest friend
that we´ll survive it together
That I will support you forever and ever
And I will pray every night and day
That the All mighty God will give you the strenth and power.
And as we used to cry together, we´ll laugh again together
/Alain Safa
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